this is one of the last tunes i wrote for
"release". my ex and i still attend the
same church and this is a very difficult
thing for me. i love her and im glad she
is there, but its so hard to see her. i
really want whats best for her and i believe
she can find that in worship. part of me
loves to think about what could have been
when i see her and restores a hope in me
that i fear is better off dead. it has
bothered me though that she seems to act as
though she doesnt know me the few times we've
talked in public. this song is an expression
of things i cannot say to her. i know you.
we had a history. ours was not a perfect song
but it was still beautiful in places.
the bridge is the idea that just believing
in something doesnt make it real. also the
idea that if one uses relationships to try to
fill the God shaped hole in his heart, that
heart shall remain crippled. one can become so
attached to that addiction of a relationship
that he doesnt realize his crumbling kingdom
is decaying due to that with which he ruled
it. it was not a crutch he needed so that he
could limp, it was healing he needed so that
he could dance.
-walker |